| For Cheryl Cicero
There are moments I
Think the Lord places someone is
Placed on our hearts
And we are told to encourage them
So I write these words
Because I see a face
As I pray
And the Lord says
Just needs to know
That they are loved
That they are doing something
So I take this time
To write a few words
To say thank you
You are an encouragement to
And those who do not open
Their eyes to that
Are the ones who
Copyright Michelle R Kidwell
1:32 A.M PST
The Lord has called me by faith to do what I do, and often even when I do not feel like it, I find myself pushing myself out of bed, and dragging myself to Sunday Morning service so I can be one of four adults who help out with the children, and we need that many believe me when we are thinking of the kids who are ADHD, those with learning disabiltieis and who need medications such as mood stabalizers, (which is a whole other blog in itself, because I feel at times that is just a cop out, not in part of the parents but the doctors who are so easy to prescribe. I admit some truly do need these things, but I think we need to really way options before we go that route but as I said that’s another blog all together)
The book of Hebrews; Chapter eleven to be exact speaks of doing things by faith, and it is my faith that gives me the energy to work with these kids. I love the energy of these children but sometimes chasing children around with five pounds of braces on your legs is not fun.
1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2This is what the ancients were commended for.
3By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God’s command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible. 4By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead.
5By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so that he did not experience death; he could not be found, because God had taken him away. For before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. 6And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
7By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that comes by faith.
8By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God.
11By faith Abraham, even though he was past age—and Sarah herself was barren—was enabled to become a father because he[a]considered him faithful who had made the promise. 12And so from this one man, and he as good as dead, came descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as countless as the sand on the seashore.
13All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.
17By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had received the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, 18even though God had said to him, “It is through Isaac that your offspring[b] will be reckoned.”[c] 19Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death.
20By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau in regard to their future.
21By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of Joseph’s sons, and worshiped as he leaned on the top of his staff.
22By faith Joseph, when his end was near, spoke about the exodus of the Israelites from Egypt and gave instructions about his bones.
23By faith Moses’ parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king’s edict.
24By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh’s daughter. 25He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time. 26He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. 27By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible. 28By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, so that the destroyer of the firstborn would not touch the firstborn of Israel.
29By faith the people passed through the Red Sea[d] as on dry land; but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were drowned.
30By faith the walls of Jericho fell, after the people had marched around them for seven days.
31By faith the prostitute Rahab, because she welcomed the spies, was not killed with those who were disobedient.[e]
32And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, 33who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35Women received back their dead, raised to life again. Others were tortured and refused to be released, so that they might gain a better resurrection. 36Some faced jeers and flogging, while still others were chained and put in prison. 37They were stoned[f]; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated— 38the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.
39These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.
Many of these children have grown close to me, perhaps it is because I have taken the time to reach out to them, to show them that the Lord loves them, that no matter what they are going through the creator of the universe cares.
Copyright Michelle R Kidwell
I was asked to write a blog about living with a chronic condition, by Lisa Copen who runs a group called Invisible Illness and a group called the Sunshine room, so here it goes.
Living with a condition like a Neuromusuclar disorder along with the conditions that are not so difficult can be challenging, and on the good days when I do not require a cane, or my scooter, and they see my handicap placard, they come in and look as if I am faking it, little do they know that walking any distance, especially on any parking lot is unstable for me, it does not take much for me to go from having a good day to landing hard on the ground.
I have been battling this condition for a long time, my whole life really, because long before I was tested for a NMD I had hip displacia, along with dyslexia and dyscalucla which are not related to the Neuromusuclar disorder, but I have learned that a postive attitude and enjoying life are as important to my health as the medications I take, and even more important is the fact that I have faith in the Lord. Without faith I do not know where I would be.
I began taking Yoga, though I am missing today, because I ended up getting my brothers cold, but the yoga is adapted to each persons limitations and needs, and both my doctor and her nurse attend so that definitely relieves any fears about being hurt. In fact it is my doctor that suggested it, because I wanted a way to deal with the pain and not having to medicate any more than I already am.
My condtion also has left me with a weakened bladder, so I take several pills a day for that alone, one to prevent the UTI’s that often accompany those who deal with conditions of the bladder, and one to relieve the pain and spasms! I only recently found a doctor who did not treat me like I was just making it up, that it was all in my head. Even the Neuromusuclar specialist I saw several times, treated me in a condenscending way, so I refused to go back to that particular doctor. Dr Hope, the doctor I like alot is getting me into a specialist at Stanford so I can get a better idea of what exactly is going on because Neuromusucular disorder is a very broad term, because in the Neuromusuclar family there are over forty two different conditions with varying levels from mild to the most severe. Mine falls somewhere in the moderate range, and it is progressive, thankfully not the extent of Duchene’s or ALS though.
I decided early on when I began working with children and when dealing with my nieces and nephews I wanted them to understand, that there are going to be some days when I can’t be as active as I like, and it has nothing to do with them. Even when working with the children at church I know when it is time to sit down, and I let them touch the braces, and Amber has driven the Motorized chair around the room. Amber is old enough to understand so I let her, at twelve I want her to understand that we are all made different. Amber herself suffers from Ear and heart trouble and a very mild case of Cerebral Palsy.
I’ve been asked a hundred times over if I had some kind of Pollyanna complex, but the truth is like everyone else with any sort of sickness I get tired. I also know that I can not sit around feeling sorry for myself, and I was and am determined to beat the odds. In many ways I am, I can still walk, I have Asthma, but my heart is good, which is a big worry for anyone with a NMD, and I have written several books four of which are published. I find that when I am active, I am giving myself the strength and stamina I need.
Copyright Michelle R Kidwell