The Love Factor

If we factor

In Love

We see the

Power of

Caring.

If we factor

In caring

We see the power

Of Friendship

Family,

And relationships.

If we factor in love

We see magic.

Copyright Michelle R Kidwell

Oct.10.06

A Few of My Thoughts on Life In Spite of Me!! Wow What a Testimony!!!

She should have died as the weight of thirty freight cars ran through her body, she should have been sucked up into the train, but the hand of God litterally held her down…

  • A Few of My Thoughts on Life In Spite of Me!! Wow What a Testimony!!!

     

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    My Niece and I just finished Life In Spite of Me, yes it is an intense book with a serious subject matter, but I believed it was important my Niece and I read this book together, because it speaks so openly of one Woman’s attempt to end her life (Kristen Jane Anderon) when she was still a child really only seventeen:  The book speaks of the fact that that is not an asnwer though, and that Christ has a purpose for our life, and that he loves us!  I wanted my thirteen and a half year old niece to be able to hear this story, and I wanted her to see that when things are bad we can always turn to God, and there is no shame in getting help when it is needed.

    I both read the book to her, and she read parts of it herself, and we discussed what were the good decisons made and what were the bad,  I first heard Kristens story on Oprah a few years ago and when she and Tricia Goyer announced they were writing Kristens story together, I knew that this was a book I wanted to read and to share with others, I believe Kristen’s story will literally save lives, I know it already has!

    I work with children and I have a teenage niece, as well as other teenagers in my life, so I felt I should read this book for that reason and because it is simply a story that needs to be told needs to be read, because despite the darkness she went through it speaks so beautifully of how that darkness transformed to light when she opened her heart to Christ.

    I would recomend this book to anyone really, because it is such a powerful story that speaks so beautifully of how God works in lives…

    God Bless

    Michelle~

Who I Am (Version Two)

I am a Child of God

First and foremost

I am also a person

Who happens to have a disability

But that by no means

Defines me.

I am a Woman

A daughter

A sister

A friend

An Auntie

And so much more

I have a neuromuscular disorder

But believe me

It by know means has me.

Copyright Michelle R Kidwell

March.17.07

8:32 P.M PST

Playing Reba On The Stereo

Playing Reba

On the Stereo

My six year old

Nephew and I singing along

Trying to catch the words

Laughing as we go.

Playing Reba

On the stereo

Spending time with

My nephew

What a moment

We shared

Playing Reba on the

Stereo

Singing along

As we rode.

Copyright Michelle R Kidwell

Jan.18.07

8:30 P.M PST

In Times of Trial

Living with a Neuromuscular disorder is going through an endless array of tests, and how we react to those tests will help us get through the struggles, a neuromuscular disorder that eats at your muscles like some kind of monster, the way we sometimes let sin eat at our faith, taking us farther and farther from Christ, and like sin you have a choice on how much damage you are going to let this condition do, not so much physically but emotionally, you can let the condition tare you up and sink you into a depression, or you can look at each day as a gift, and thank God for everyday you are able to plant your feet on the floor,

 
Living with a Neuromuscular disorder is going through an endless array of tests, and how we react to those tests will help us get through the struggles, a neuromuscular disorder that eats at your muscles like some kind of monster, the way we sometimes let sin eat at our faith, taking us farther and farther from Christ, and like sin you have a choice on how much damage you are going to let this condition do, not so much physically but emotionally, you can let the condition tare you up and sink you into a depression, or you can look at each day as a gift, and thank God for everyday you are able to plant your feet on the floor, because with alot of neuromuscular disorders you slowly loose the ability even to walk, but you learn not to dwell on things like that, and cherish what you have, and the fact of the matter is no matter what happens, my faith in God is my stronghold, and strangely it was in my sickness that I began seeking him and grew closer to him, because I started developing many of these symptopms in highschool and that is when I started seeking him the most, in fact it was my Senior year of highschool that I gave my heart to Christ, and in sickness I found my strength, because I leaned on him.

Early on with my own battle with this conditio and in my own health I discovered Joni Eacerson Tada and found encouragement in the life she lead, and the ministry she does, the Lord uses her even from a wheelchair, and that has brought me a measure of comfort.

I find that Isaiah 40 Speaks so deeply to me and gives me so much comfort…

Isaiah 40
Comfort for God’s People
1 Comfort, comfort my people,
says your God.
2 Speak tenderly to Jerusalem,
and proclaim to her
that her hard service has been completed,
that her sin has been paid for,
that she has received from the LORD’s hand
double for all her sins.

3 A voice of one calling:
“In the desert prepare
the way for the LORD [a] ;
make straight in the wilderness
a highway for our God. [b]

4 Every valley shall be raised up,
every mountain and hill made low;
the rough ground shall become level,
the rugged places a plain.

5 And the glory of the LORD will be revealed,
and all mankind together will see it.
For the mouth of the LORD has spoken.”

6 A voice says, “Cry out.”
And I said, “What shall I cry?”
“All men are like grass,
and all their glory is like the flowers of the field.

7 The grass withers and the flowers fall,
because the breath of the LORD blows on them.
Surely the people are grass.

8 The grass withers and the flowers fall,
but the word of our God stands forever.”

9 You who bring good tidings to Zion,
go up on a high mountain.
You who bring good tidings to Jerusalem, [c]
lift up your voice with a shout,
lift it up, do not be afraid;
say to the towns of Judah,
“Here is your God!”

10 See, the Sovereign LORD comes with power,
and his arm rules for him.
See, his reward is with him,
and his recompense accompanies him.

11 He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
he gently leads those that have young.

12 Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand,
or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens?
Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket,
or weighed the mountains on the scales
and the hills in a balance?

13 Who has understood the mind [d] of the LORD,
or instructed him as his counselor?

14 Whom did the LORD consult to enlighten him,
and who taught him the right way?
Who was it that taught him knowledge
or showed him the path of understanding?

15 Surely the nations are like a drop in a bucket;
they are regarded as dust on the scales;
he weighs the islands as though they were fine dust.

16 Lebanon is not sufficient for altar fires,
nor its animals enough for burnt offerings.

17 Before him all the nations are as nothing;
they are regarded by him as worthless
and less than nothing.

18 To whom, then, will you compare God?
What image will you compare him to?

19 As for an idol, a craftsman casts it,
and a goldsmith overlays it with gold
and fashions silver chains for it.

20 A man too poor to present such an offering
selects wood that will not rot.
He looks for a skilled craftsman
to set up an idol that will not topple.

21 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
Has it not been told you from the beginning?
Have you not understood since the earth was founded?

22 He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth,
and its people are like grasshoppers.
He stretches out the heavens like a canopy,
and spreads them out like a tent to live in.

23 He brings princes to naught
and reduces the rulers of this world to nothing.

24 No sooner are they planted,
no sooner are they sown,
no sooner do they take root in the ground,
than he blows on them and they wither,
and a whirlwind sweeps them away like chaff.

25 “To whom will you compare me?
Or who is my equal?” says the Holy One.

26 Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.

27 Why do you say, O Jacob,
and complain, O Israel,
“My way is hidden from the LORD;
my cause is disregarded by my God”?

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

People often look at me and if they see me struggling they want to offer me pity, and that is not what I need, what I need is the faith that gets me through and the understanding that comes in serving him, I do not need pity, but I do need the love and fellowship of Godly people.

Copyright Michelle R Kidwell

Sept.02.2008

I Don’t Want Your Judgement

I dont want your judgement

I want your love

I want you to look beyond

The obvious

And see me for the

Person I am on the inside.

I dont ask for you

To judge me

I ask for you to love me

Look beyond my perceived

Imperfections.

Copyright Michelle R Kidwell

Oct.08.08

3:08 P.M PST

They Say Miracles Don’t Happen

They say miracles

Don’t happen

That miracles

Are only in fairytales

Or Childrens Cartoons

I say

Are you blind to

Everything around you?

The sounds of children at play

The first smile

Of an infant

The songs of laughter

A bird in flight

The love of a Christ

Who makes the blind see

And deaf hear.

They say miracles

Don’t happen

I say life is a miracle

Embrace it.

Copyright Michelle R Kidwell

Oct.11.08

2:50 P.M PST

Who Do You Call a Hero

Who do you call a hero

Is it the Mother who burried

A child

And carried on the faith

In the midst of the agony,

Or the Father

Who sits by his sick childs bedside

Whispering a prayer.

Is it the one who

Simply reaches out

Even to the strangers on the

Street

Letting love flow

As Jesus did

When he walked

This earth all those

Years ago.

Who do you call a hero

Is it the one

The doctors said

Would never walk again

And with gritted teeth

And hands clinched to medal bars

Those first steps are taken

Steps that should have never came to pass.

Do you define a hero

Is the ones who

Fight the good fight

So they may call us free

The ones who fight the battles

So we may not have to fight

While so many of us

Cut them down at

Every Turn.

Who do you call a

Hero?

Copyright Michelle R Kidwell

Nov.03.08

5:28 P.M PST